hmm juz wanna say dat my home com internet is down! so i wun be gg online or blogging for a while le ba.. now at sembawang camp blogging.. hmm yepz im comfirmed to be a driver le.. no choice le ba.. accept fate lo..

anywayz, im juz stealing a moment's time to blog! yea they told me to come report today.. but i waited from like 11am to 4pm b4 they finally interviewed me! sian n now dey told me i can go home n report 2ml.. haix n i got soooooooo much things to carry here n der la! sad sad...

k la.. heard dat this unit wun be so slack le.. haha haf to get through it le lo no matter wad.. its a stay in unit whether i finish the course le anot.. so ya.. wadeva la~ see how it goes.. dats all then!

...the feeling of loneliness is so scary..

heh thx for tagging! makes this blog not so dead.. anywayz...

had a nice nice dday with some of my old ctss frens last sat! yep a once in a year thing dat we started in sec 4.. though i spent like $50+ on one night alone.. haha but yea its so rare to see dem and talk.. haha the last time i saw them was..... so long ago dat i dun even remember! tink its 1 yr ago!! =p

hmm another update on my ns life.. unexpected things do happen dont dey? received news that i will be getting posted into 1TPT, which is a transport battalion.. to become a driver!!! wth la.. of all pple, only i going der.. n i dun even noe why.. yea i can get a free license.. but dat is if i drive like.. 7000km?? which i tink i can nvr reach.. and i heard the place is far from my hse la.. dey say its at sembawang.. den the driving course is at bedok! and its a stay out kind.. so dat means my travelling fees will be overwhelming!! and the main prob is, i have motion sickness!! i really dunno how i can drive le la.. sick of ns.. kick me here n der like a ball.. Argh!

k tink dats all.. will be posted out on the 16th.. hmm will see how it goes den.. having an off 2ml! yep so i'll be home rotting i guess.. haha yea im lifeless! wadeva~

haha im like blogging once a mth le.. anywayz...

yep dunno if still got pple read my blog anot.. so dats y i haven been updating ba.. coupled with the fact dat my com at home keeps giving me problems.. yea so just a brief update on my life ba~

my sad sad sad bday went pass this yr very quietly.. haha spent it in camp with no one knowing.. so i slept at like, 9pm? haha so sad la.. but still, wanna thank all dos who msged to wish me a happy bday! heh at least it shows dat im not forgotten.. =)

oh btw, my pes status downgraded le.. from A to C1.. so now im a clerk.. dats y can use the com n blog.. yep just for ur info to dos who dunno bah~

had a rare outing wif the nhss peeps on sat.. its been long bah.. yea it was a surprise bday celebration for shuyi.. hope shuyi enjoyed it! and the present too! and the cake and everything! haha.. when will the nxt one be? *ponders*

hmm nothing much le la.. uni starting soon for the gals.. all the best n study hard hard k? will join dos at ntu 2 yrs down the road.. =p k la take care pple!

well time to clear the cobwebs in my nearly extinct blog.. yepx! im back to blog.. though dunno how often.. internet keeps giving me problems and lots of things happened... just a brief update on my posting..

yes as some of u already know, im posted to 4SIR as a RIFLEMAN... yes the acclaimed lowest lifeform in NS life.. the super chiong unit.. for the guys, guess u shld know wad a rifleman is.. for those who dun, here's a brief description abt it..

becoming a rifleman means welcoming back my most hated stuffs:
1) Field CampSSSSS =((((((((((
2) Route MarcheSSSS =((((((
3) SOC =(
4) Camo Creams which makes my face ugly n grow alot of pimples!!! =(((((((((((
5) Combat RationSSSSS which taste like dog food! =((((
6) Clean rifle, clean rifle, CLEAN RIFLE!!!! =(((((

AAA!!!! im so dead.. really.. my worse fear is now here... haixxxxxxx... but i guess i really cant blame anybody.. cuz in the end, it is me! my fault! everyting is my fault!!!!!!!!! why did i reject to command school?? why why why? if i get rifleman, i might as well go SISPEC or OCS!!! it's just so unfair.. sianz. nothing to say le. just so fed up!

k la dats all.. if u all see me one day on the street n dun recognise me anymore.. den.. ya juz dun.. AAAAA!! wad am i saying.. going crazy.. 2ml i swear im gonna drink myself drunk! if i got the money dat is.. =p k la take care pple!

boo back for 1 day.. booking in 2ml at 6pm for preparation of sit test on sunday.. sad sad sad but looking on the bright side, its like the last outfield camp in the whole bmt le! yep! after this is over, bmt is coming to a close too.. 4 wks+ to pop! suddenly time seems to pass soooo fast.. oh well..

anywayz, yea got accepted into NUS business with accountancy and NTU accountancy.. shld be choosing NTU over NUS bah.. yep anyone choosing the same course as me? though i will only start in 2008.. haha~ hmm hope i do make the right choice bah.. will be accepting soon le.. maybe 2ml if i have the time.. yeppx! see how bah..

my taggy board is becoming an army guys gathering ar? lol pls let the girls (if any) tag n join in the conversation leh.. if not so sian.. =x muahaha!

so tired now.. had a tough day 2day b4 booking out.. sianz.. tink i go slp le bah.. lights out, 2230.. heh gdnite!

yay im back from camp! heh when everybody book out on thursday nite, i was still inside! poor me.. had guard duty on friday morning till 2day morning.. 24 hrs!!! sianx! hmm made me missed out on alot alot of things yesterday.. heard alot of fun went on at dil's bday celebration.. argh! haix doesnt matter anymore le.. wad matters most is dat im back! though only for a short 1 day n 2ml nite im booking in, and der's a field camp nxt wk which means i wun be booking out nxt wk... oh wells..

hmm dunno wad to say le la.. army life has changed alot since ptp period ends.. everyting has to be done fast fast fast! no time to slack n rest n all!! guess i can only get used to it bah.. yeppx! heh.. will be gg out later.. cant wait!!!! =)

k la tink i go slp le.. tired.. heh.. take care pple!

heh im out again! wad to say leh... hmm dunno wad to say la.. just tired lo.. haha not enuf slp!!!!!! =p

some things happened inside which i shant elaborate.. just dat i got a few days off without having to train at all.. heh.. so i have no right to complain that im tired.. the rest are worse.. haha..

saw the most most frightening storm i have ever seen in my life yesterday.. i tink among all storms in singapore, tekong one is the scariest.. i mean, can u imagine seeing a lightning streak across the sky 5 times at the same spot? 5 times!! we were like WOAH! scary scary.. not to mention that the lights in tekong is not exactly bright.. and with all the yelling of platoon mates to fall in and everybody running about and slamming doors, its just like doomsday is here.. haha..

k la nothing else le.. my PTP period left only 1 wk le.. fast fast! hope ns is over soon!!! =D

booking in 2day.. lots of feelings.. shant elaborate here..






wad can i do.. =(

boo hey pple im back!! haha for a short 2 days only la.. but u wun noe how much i miss the outside world!! hahaha~ yeppx missed the food... missed the pple... miss the environment.. alot alot! hmm army life aint easy at all.. but still, must endure rite? haha yepp can get through it like everyone else de! =)

hmm tink i got tan a little bit n grow a little stronger.. and and and!!! wad im excited is dat i have gained weight!! 2 wks inside, yesterday i measured my weight n guess wad? i gained 2 kgs!!!! wahahhaa so happy le.. =x yepp my sis said yesterday dat my voice is more man now.. i tink so too!! lol im more man now le! buahahaha~

heh nothing else to say le bah.. juz wanna let u all noe dat im ok n fine n healthy n kicking! ask me out if possible bah k? will be booking in on sunday 7pm.. yeppx take care pple!!

enlisting tomorrow.. time really flies eh? ha just a few mths back i was rotting aimlessly around and thinking of NS.. now that it has finally come, i wanna escape it SO much..

SO much that i just cant bear to leave behind.. even for a short 2 wks..

short? i dunno.. i guess its going to be hard.. but i guess we just have to endure bah..

yeppx no choice le.. it's here and we just have to face it.. just hope that everyting will go smoothly and fine in der..

what will happen to me? what will i become? questions questions..

confused.
stressed.
depressed.
sad.
frustrated.
regrets.

so much feelings.. and none of it is optimistic.. and i was telling you that i dun wanna see you cry.. haix come on snap out of it! =(

phew ok i tink i feel better after typing this entry.. yeppx! everyting's going to be just fine.. will come out in one piece, more muscular, more weight, more man and of cuz, botak! heh..

so for all of u out there seeing this entry, take care ok? heh n if u really wanna see me after i cut my hair, ask me out when i book out bah.. lol~ cya!!!

hmm results are above my expectations.. yep so im quite happy abt it.. budden...

lets just say dat der are always ups n downs.. results are not all dat matters, really.. i just hope dat dos who din do as well to pull urself 2gether.. as meiling mentioned in her blog,

no matter what results you get, always remember that u're worth much more than that piece of paper..

cheer up! ok? =)

i just hope dat this is just a passing storm..



and we will see a beautiful rainbow after the rain..






no more tears pls.. no more..

hmm life is rather boring nowadays.. no more wrk le.. waiting for enlistment n of cuz, the release of A's result.. anywayz, i've been slacking n slacking!! its SOOO boring to be doing nothing at home.. n wad's worse, even if i wanna go out, a large number of pple are wrking! so nobody to go out wif me lo.. and the saddest thing is dat, even if i manage to find someone to go out wif, it oso means im going to spend money.. haix... wad shld i do....

juz a simple update bah.. bought new specs! yepp will see a "new" me after i go collect my specs 2ml.. going to haf a new bag too! =) eh other dan dat nothing else le bah.. juz trying to get myself training but sadly, im juz such a lazy bum! someone pls pull me out for a run or swim or someting!! if not im really so dead after i get in tekong.. =x

xj bday is 2day! ha happy bday bro! eh dun dare say anyting else le.. if not later i hear super high pitch screaming again.. =p hahaha cya on sunday!





can someone pls tell me how do i enjoy my last few wks of freedom.. its just so fast..

regrets regrets

Happy Valentine's Day!!!

heh my very first valentine's day in 18yrs.. yeppx! planned quite some time for dis n had some headache n stress n nitemares.. but its all over n the day has been great! =) its all worth the effort.. really.. heh..

wasnt expecting dinner to be so.. funny la.. din tink abt it at all when i planned to do it.. but ya it turned out to be cute.. haha! at least we enjoyed it hor? ya dats all dat matters.. hehe..

haha anywayz wanna thank 3 person for making dis day possible!!

Jingchun! for accompanying me to shop for valentine's.. haha sorry abt the dumb idea to go suntec to shop.. wasted quite some time n in the end din buy anyting.. haha.. but anywayz, juz wanna thank u la.. kk? heh..

Ziyan!!!!!!!!! say alot of time wanna treat u eat rosti.. den u still turn me down?? haha thx alot for gg out wif me to shop oso ok?? ya luckily got u.. if not i no prezzie le.. haha sorry for wasting our efforts shopping at far east too.. and and, haha thx for ur concern on whether she like the prezzie anot k? =D

n of cuz..
to my girlfriend..
no amt of words can describe how thankful i am to be wif u.. really.. ya u noe im not good wif words.. but i do noe 3 words.. =)






I Love You

yepx its the 4th day le.. and still counting.. wad a breakthrough..

amazing? tink its more of unbearable, torturous or even fatal.. haha!

eh wrk left 2 days only.. yeppx after dat will be trying to train up for ns.. haix im going to become man le! not boy!! haha dunno wad will happen to everyting once im in.. hmm ok nvm dun tok abt dat le..

anywayz, valentine's is coming!! die. lol~ everyting's not prepared.. =x eh shall see wad i can come up wif this last few days bah.. =p

ok la dats all.. taggy is drying up.. n pple dun blog nowadays.. yawnx! hehe.. take care peeps!



oh n dun fall sick ok? =)

hmmm trip to dil's hse was great! though not as high as i intended it to be.. maybe cuz we arrived quite late le bah.. heh sorry.. but anywayz..... yep first time at dil's hse.. waa rather big leh!! love her room la! her bed, her tv, her study desk, still got personal toilet! shiok.. like hotel liddat but with a kinda family warmth.. lol y am i saying abt this thing.. aiya but the sad thing is dat.. erm dun say le.. =x

anywayz, steamboat for dinner! pong n zhe went off early.. we eat n eat n cook n cook.. n i had to wash the things n clear up n all.. dunno y i din say anyting just now when i was asked to do it.. maybe giving xj face bah.. lol! jking.. dey are so busy with everyting so its ok if i help out abit lo.. see? so helpful!!!!! *abish*

hmm gambling was nxt.. i am seriously not going to gamble again le.. at least not when sharon is arnd.. =p lost like crazy.. banker can gif one person 2 As n the other blackjack.. wad the.. ya lost like crazy.. anywayz, pool was nxt! me vs xj.. hmm ya dil's hse got pool table! can play till song oso no need pay money.. haha.. eh den went for some singing in the room den went off le lo.. yeppx..

after dat, hmmm... crazy crazy us.. haha.. wonder why der oways got more stars dan other places.. must be my reasoning on the lighting la! hahaha! kk nvm.. =)

2ml still got wrk!! super sian.. tink i will be so tired la.. haha n we having a class dinner after dat.. yeppx! cant wait to see the army guys.. dot, timo, amos... haven see dem botak yet.. haha.. yepx dats all le.. just wanna thank dil n family so much for the invitation bah.. nxt time must go again! i haven done wad i was suppose to do! lol~ =D

hmmm everyting is fine le.. someting happened last nite which i shall not elaborate.. it was totally my fault.. was so shocked n worried n scared dat i... ok nvm.. just so so so so glad dat it is over.. =)

anywayz, in abt an hr time its chinese new year!!!!! hmm so i hope dat u all get lots of ang paos n enjoy urselves in this few days of holidays! yepx haf fun okie?? haha..

xing nian kuai le!!

im hating myself currently.... seriously hating myself....



useless me.. =(



just wanna be der for u.. juz wan u to feel better n at the very least lift ur mood even if it was through a simple sms.. but i juz didnt.. y didnt i..

i suck.

n all i am doing is stand at one side, while knowing dat u r suffering n enduring work, i am watching tv.. wads worse, u took the effort to msg me during ur dinner even if u were in a rush.. n i din see the msg until 9.. just wad the heck am i doing.. i really hate myself..

argh.. disgusted at myself.. =(

One month le..

yepx! special special day for us.. details...... dun elaborate bah.. juz wanna say dat i enjoyed my day totally wif her.. so much so dat i din even wan it to end..

one more sweet memory added to my collection.. =)

to her: thx for dat nice gift u got me.. love it so so so so much la! n im so guilty i din get anyting for u.. will make it up to u during valentine's i hope!!!! n pls... cheer up ok?? this day, the pictures, everyting will be kept inside my heart forever.. =) nxt time we go out we take better n nicer pics wif electric fan bah!! but u hold hor.. =x hehe..