Really grateful to all those who cared. =)

And no I'm not on the verge of depression nor suicide. Haha.

Hopes were lifted thanks to job intro from yisian. Though i will have to reply you soon. Thanks again!!


It's scary how time flies. Just a blink of an eye, i have wasted away freaking 2++ weeks. And by wasted, i really mean wasted. Not doing anything and rotting at home that kind of wasted. Not going out nor having fun that kind of wasted.

Gosh.


Oh well.

Thinking from another angle, i bet i will complain when i have an overwhelming amount of work while seeing some people rotting at home all day.

Heh.


Actually, there's another much more important thing on my mind right now.

My driving test.

April 21st is in 2+ weeks time.




Shit.

Parents are back!

Anyway, as expected, i couldn't join in the Hip Hop class since it has already started and it's full. Guess it's a dream unfulfilled again~

I really need someone to talk to. I'm thinking of a lot of unnecessary stuffs recently. Just too much time on my hands i guess.

On a verge of craziness. Rawr!!

Hopefully i am able to learn Hip hop with XX DT chinaguy and Ronan. Though chances are quite slim after i browsed through the O school web page.

Oh well, i have not even found a job. So no hurry to spend i guess. Haha.

But i want to go shopping! I want to watch movies! I want to go out! =(

The irony of it all..

I wonder if anyone ever thought about how the story of the little mermaid should have ended.

To refresh those who forgot this fairytale, here's a summary:

The little mermaid, is a mermaid. One fine day, she falls in love with a handsome human prince. But alas, as a mermaid, she cannot venture into the land.

So, she went to see the evil sea witch. Being evil, the sea witch made her drink this poisonous potion which grants her a pair of legs. However, at the same time, she lost her voice. Also, she will feel excruciating pain whenever she walks. The worst part is, if the prince happens to marry another person, the very next day, the little mermaid will die and turn to sea foam.

Sad huh?

But because of her love for him, she drank the potion willingly. When she met the prince, no matter how much she wanted to say she loved him, she couldn't.

And the prince, not knowing the feelings of the little mermaid, went on to marry a princess from the neighboring country.

Imagine how much the little mermaid has given up, how much pain she has suffered. Sometimes i really wonder if all this is worth it.

Anyway, the evil witch, being very very evil, gave her a chance to survive. She can return to being a mermaid, swimming freely in the ocean only if she kills the prince before the wedding.

Sadistic witch.

At midnight, when the prince was sound asleep, the little mermaid went to his chamber with a knife. But staring at his face, she couldn't bring herself to kill him.

So, for his happiness, she gave up her life.

As this is a fairytale, the ending was something along the line of "the little mermaid turns into an angel blah blah..."

But a large part of the story is still very much a tragic story.



Oh well.

Don't ask me why i had the sudden thought of this story. Just that, i really wonder if a story that already has an ending is worth thinking about/troubling over.

In the end, after typing a whole entry down, I didn't have the courage to post it.



Humans are so contradicting sometimes. So much so that they sometimes lose themselves in the process.




I really don't know anymore.

Eh don't ask me why but...

I actually enjoyed today's episode of spongebob squarepants.

Yes you heard me, Spongebob Squarepants.

Wonder if i mentioned before, the WORST ever, MOST money wasting ever movie that i watched was none other than, Spongebob Squarepants the movie.

And i watched it with a group of guys. To be more specific, a group of JC guys. JC classmates.

If i remember correctly, about 8? of us were there.

To protect the dignity, ego, and whatever face they have, i shall not name them. =)

Haha those were the days.



Anyway, had a little meet up plus majong session with Shuhui, Shuyi, Soonhui and Heowhui. It's so nice for people close to you to live so near you. Can meet up with them at the shortest notice.



Parents going Macau tomorrow! Leaving the 3 little kids at home to fend off the big bad wolf. Haha. So please, ask me out!

It's a sad day today.

Regretted not going to the gym.

Still no signs/traces of any job opportunities knocking on my door.

Another day stuck at home doing nothing at all.

Sigh.

Though some might say that this sort of lifestyle ain't that bad at all since you don't get your rest so often.

But this is just toooooo long for me.

Oh well. I guess that I'm in no position to complain. Didn't plan ahead and thus, landed up in this sort of predicament.



Warning! The below passage may seem a bit abstract.


I accidentally chanced upon my friend's friend's blog. And what was written there was the exact same kind of feeling i had.

Such a coincidence.

I have never been able to clearly describe it, but you did.

What's funny is that you seem to be the future had I made the move when I had the chance.

The strange thing is, even though i saw that you have been having a hard time, somewhere inside, I'm still telling myself to try. Without trying, i will never know. Things may not turn out the same way.

But like what Clarence said, when you miss the moment, the right moment, it may not ever come back again.

What's over is over.
What's undone is undone.

Time to look forward now. I hope.

有缘无份吧。。。



P.S: Though Clarence is a bastard, but i guess he can also sometimes speak human language hor? Haha!!

Hmm random question.

Which is worse?

You finding out that someone you like is upset because of you?

Or

You finding out that someone you like is upset because of somebody else?


Well, as i said, it's just a random question. Don't go assume things ok. Haha.

Anyway, i faced quek quek today for another 2 hours of driving. Sometimes i really don't know if i'm improving in my driving or otherwise.

To be honest, i really thought that i drove pretty ok last time. Before i took the driving test.

But yea, guess what i thought isn't reality.

I don't wanna face quek quek anymore. I don't wanna spend so much money on driving anymore. I don't wanna have an L plate anymore.

I wanna pass my driving badly. =(

Next target, 6 points!!!!





Don't freaking laugh i tell you all.

I am so proud of myself today.

I went to the gym, went to not 1 but 3 job agencies, and went to face the quek quek for driving.

MOST IMPORTANTLY, i saw a darn freaking freaking chio girl today!

*melts*

How i wish i could follow her home. Hahaha!

But really, it is at times like this when i feel so helpless. 10 minutes after leaving our "sacred-first-time-meeting-place", i still kept staring back.

Gosh...


Coming back to reality, wonder if anyone of you noticed. The sun today was Woahoahoahah~!

I bet it can cook an egg in 1 minute, deep fry an ant in 30 seconds and cook it in 5.

Heck, it even forces the aunties to take out their umbrellas in the bus interchange.


No more sun looking through the magnifying glass please! Just a normal one will do. =)

Tomorrow! I will hopefully be fulfilling some of my targets i set in the previous post if you all recall.

I'm going to the GYM tomorrow!

I'm going to a recruit agency tomorrow!

I'm going to learn driving again tomorrow!

I'm going to buy a new handphone tomorrow! (Not Confirmed)

I'm going to find a girlfriend tomorrow! (haha joking joking)

Finally i am moving my lazy a** and be more proactive in reaching my targets.

Yep time to take the big step out!

Talking about which, i just watched "Step Up 2" with Xiangjing, Yidian and Jingchun. In my opinion, the first was still much better.

Oh and i wonder if i mentioned before, i had always wanted to learn dancing, e.g Hip Hop, Modern etc. But the lazy me always takes over when I'm hesitating.

Besides, it's not easy to pick up dancing. You have to be clear on what you want to achieve. Whether be it dancing for performance, competition, or just for fun. And there are additional concerns on money, time, commitment etc.

So in the end, it is still just a wish for me to pick up dancing.

Let me dance in my dreams then. Sleeping time!!!

Some cool videos! Enjoy!

I keep staring at this blank screen. Wondering how i should blog about today.

Despite it being a good day, meeting up for dinner with some old army mates, going for Xiao Pei's concert at TP.

But...



What...?

I am so darn freaking bored these days.

Well, it must be the post-ord symptom. I must really do something about this. If i carry on my everyday life like this, one fine day, i will turn into a scarecrow.

Yes, a freaking scarecrow.

One that doesn't move, doesn't eat, doesn't sleep, doesn't talk etc.

HELP!!!!


If any of my saviors are seeing this, you may help me by either:

a) Asking me out, for shopping trip, working out, finding job, whatever.

b) Introducing me a job at the place you currently are working at or at your friend's place or something like that.

c) All of the above.


Haha i shall await for good news then. *crosses fingers*

Yep i finally ORD LO!!!!!

So now, it is time to look into the future, a.k.a the Civilian World.

Which brings me to set some targets to meet before i enter university.


1) Change my Freaking handphone ASAP. Like as ASAP as possible.

2) Find a job. Well, I'm not very demanding for a job since it is temporary. But!! I need a basic pay of at least $1.2k, it cant be any further than town area, and it must have a normal/reasonable/humane working hours. Haha any lobang?

3) Cut my hair and maybe dye/highlight it?

4) Change to contacts??? Though I'm a tad bit scared.

5) Buy more new clothes. Like tons of them. To prepare for school. Hehehe.

6) Try not to be lazy and workout. Maybe gym or swimming or sports.

7) If possible, go for a holiday in Taiwan! BIG hint to Eugenia and Xiang Jing. =D

8) Most importantly, pass my driving. No more setting Guinness World Record since i don't earn anything other than "fame" among my most "trusted" friends.

Hahaha i wonder if i can achieve all of them during this period. Oh well, i guess u never know until u try?


That is if i try.


I'm sure i will. It's just a matter of time hor? =p

haha this week has been crazy. and to top that off, i have been spending scary amount of money on entertainment!!!

first up, went for dinner with shuyi shuhui pong hh and pui last saturday at Pasta de Waraku at marina! after dat was a last minute kbox overnite session. first time seeing/hearing shuhui singing. next time she must join us more! =)

next, mambo on wed night with my ns mates! it was the MOST PATHETIC clubbing experience i have. not because of the club music or the company or the crowd, but i totally KO after some drinks. i tink i overestimated my drinking ability ba. haha.

but ya from 130 till 330am i dunno wad im doing at all. puking and sleeping outside zouk. i only remember got some pple who i dunno at all came up to me and ask if im okay. i tink i kena rob i oso dunno.

worse, my bunch of "good" ns mates are happily dancing inside when i told them i outside zouk puking. and they only came out after zouk closed and laughed at me. -_-"

anyway, yesterday was another overnight kbox session with weizhe and vicky. last minute decision oso. cuz after our pri sch fren, clarice bday party, we just dun feel like going home ba. after the kbox session i was tricked by them to walk home.

and guess wad?


in the end, when we reaching boonlay soon we took a cab.

damn argh la!!!!

hahahah oh well we had fun.

oh ya, ORD TOMORROW!!!!! sobx finally get to see my pink ic le. yayness! =D

updates!

im sorry to xj that i had to leave early for his bday party last sun cuz i need to book in. but i can see that u had fun la. haha dats all that matters rite?

anywayz, exercise finally end le. and im finally going to ORD soon le. 2 more working days! what can i say? haha. time really flies ba.

2 years in army. a major phase of my life. going to be over in a week's time. really got alot alot to say about my army life.

i was "given" the opportunity to be in 3 different camps in my 2 years of NS. it is really a rare experience i should say. from chionging in 4SIR, to being a driver in 6DIV CMTL, to a clerk at 8SAB. 3 different camps. 3 different color of beret. 3 different jobs. 3 different experience.

and most importantly, 3 different groups of friends made.

hmm dun wanna go on and on le. only thing to say is....

im really really appreciative of everything that i went through in the army, be it good or bad. =)

time to find a job soon!